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  • Every age can’t be golden

    Next week I’ll celebrate my forty-second birthday. I’ve never been much of a birthday person, but this one seems especially mid. It’s not youthful and relevant, or old and wise, it falls into the unexceptional middle. I’ll probably order takeout. I think I feel loneliness more intensely than the other emotions. I can feel much,

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  • Anonymity

    One of my favorite mom duties is making costumes for my kids. When they were younger, I made it a month long event, spreading materials out over every work surface in the house, using any free moment to glue on another plastic leaf. When my oldest was too young to decide on his own costume,

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  • Carrying on.

    When the only option is digging deep. I was naive when I started therapy. I was sure I could be fixed. I believed I was the problem in each of my relationships. I expected too much. And I had some anger issues I had to work on. I was livid with absolutely everyone. I walked

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  • Gratitude & Gravity

    this one’s for me I have a propensity for cynicism. I think it’s because I see things for what they are. It’s hard to open yourself to the troubles of the world and not start the calculations. I do fight it. I need to. Cynicism keeps me from my real life. The one I blew

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  • The troubles

    Aspirations in waste management Our next door neighbor grows a beautiful flower garden every summer. Around this time of year she usually gifts our family a bright bouquet of all kinds of colorful blooms. My favorite are her sunflowers, that fully saturated yellow makes it difficult to feel depressed. Some of them grow so tall

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  • Let’s circle back

    Death alone is certain I think there’s an expression that goes: nothing is certain except death and taxes. That’s a bit f*cked if you ask me, but no one is (asking me, I mean; no one is asking me). The death part makes sense though, it comes for us all. When I first started writing

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  • Refugee

    Maybe this is something I think I’m supposed to be networking more if I want to be a real writer (read: paid writer). I’m supposed to be reading a hell of a lot more, I know that. I don’t even know where to submit my stuff because I don’t read the kind of stuff I

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  • minding the fire

    proof is in the pudding Nothing happens in a vacuum. I can’t pick one fight because, you see, they are all related. F*ck the f*cking f*ckers. Elon Musk said he would put a baby in Taylor Swift. He wrote it as if that’s what she was asking for all along. As if that’s the message

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  • Fair wage

    The Audacity of Men If you’ve seen the Barbie movie, you heard America Ferrara perform her monologue on the absolute paradox of womanhood. After what seems like an endless list of conflicting requirements for women, she is at a loss for what to do about it. It’s difficult to know where to land on the

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